Garden Gnomes

Well, we have officially broken ground on the garden spot! Hannah is so excited! We are still in the early phases of development, but it is coming together nicely. We have about a 20 by 10 foot area and are clearing out the grass to one foot below yard level. We are then going to pour a curb around it to keep all future grass from arriving. My hopes with the new garden are to teach my children where vegetables come from and how we need to work to get them. We are going to try a completely organic system. I have been researching organic pesticides and we are going to give those a shot. I hope to plant Marigolds around the perimeter to keep some bugs out and strategically plant others to grow best. I hope it works and the girls don't get too bored with it too early! Wish me luck!

Becoming Myself

I need a hobby. I don't feel like I have anything just for me. I would really like to do something crafty, but I just do not have time. I would really, really, really like to go to culinary school. I wish there was one around here. If I could manage not working, I would be in my kitchen all day long trying new recipes.
I have discovered a fondness for fish too. I don't know how to cook it, but I find it mighty tasty! My husband doesn't eat things that he doesn't understand. He only eats things he is comfortable with. Chicken Fried Steak....steak fried like a chicken. This he can wrap his head around. Tacos....nothing but hamburger and cheese. Fancy! My options are limited. I love my kitchen. Daniel built it just for me and I think it is wonderful. I wish it had more counter space, but I have learned that you never have enough counter space. My girls are just getting old enough now that they love to help me! That makes it even more fun for me. They really are more into tasting absolutely everything. If you eat at my house, odds are on you are eating something my children have had their hands in by way of their mouths!
I am hoping that this summer when things slow down at work, that I can experiment more in the kitchen. I would like to try some healthier things. Maybe find a way to get my girls more involved in eating (they are very picky). Maybe get my husband to try something new! Who knows, I may just make a hobby happen!

Maintainence....Not Just For Your Car

It's been a while. I have missed warmer days. I can't wait until it is consistent enough that I can go outside with my girls and go for walks. I have learned a lot over the winter. This winter has been the most stressful season I have ever been through, but I feel as though I have come through with flying colors. Work has been unbelievably difficult for me. There have been many times when I could have easily thrown in the towel. probably more then I can count. I have had a difficult time with coming to terms with Big H going to school this fall. It has been eating at me all winter. I am just not ready.
But through it all, I have maintained my weight! Usually in the winter I pack on the pounds! Not this year! I maintained! I have also learned that I am beautiful! even if my kids are the only ones that think so. And my husband. I have learned to not shrug off when he tells me I am hot or that I'm "lookin' good." I will take advantage of this. As long as he isn't repulsed by me, things can be alright! I am working really hard at concentrating on the things I love about myself. I'm a great mom. I work hard. I am dependable to a fault! And in this process I have discovered that there are even things about my body that I am no longer ashamed of.
I have big boobs. Always have they been my Nemesis. Now they are my friends! I have stretch marks, but I also have two wonderful little girls to go with it! They were worth them!
I am slowly getting there!